Red Chiffon Blouse, Black women’s cardigan, black trousers with double button detail, Coral Bra, Work shoes, Henley cream shoulder bag.
Nail Polish – Pale Pink, All Fingers
White Blouse With Colour Panels, Black women’s cardigan, Black trousers with double button detail, Work Shoes and Henley cream shoulder bag. No Bra being worn today.
Nail Polish – Pale Gold, All Fingers.
Satin blouse, Dark Blue top/jumper, Black elasticated trousers, Cream Bra, Work shoes and Henley cream shoulder bag.
Jewellery – Make Seiko watch, Gold/Silver banded hoop earrings, Black/Silver swirl style ring.
Nail Polish – Gold, with yellow under coat.
Dark Blue silk blouse, Red top/jumper, Black trousers with belt loops, plain brown belt (not shown), dark blue bra, Henley bag and work shoes.
Jewellery: Belt style bracelet, Necklace from set shown.
Nail Polish – Blue – Thumb, middle and little fingers
Dark Blue scoop neck t-shirt, Grey Jumper, Boot-cut jeans, light blue bra, Silver/Punk trainers, Brown handbag.
Nail Polish – Rainbow – [In order from Thumb to little finger] Pale Pink, Green, Blue, Pink, Purple
This week has been a very mixed one. My daughter got into a fight after school (but on school grounds) on Monday which saw me having to punish her as it was her fault. Whilst the school have left it at that, it could have been more serious. This seems to have set a strange tone for the week as it then unfolded.
Tuesday and Wednesday I have felt…. left out or cast aside at work. Hard to put a specific reason on it other than the ones I would normally apply – the clothes I wear etc. Whilst being a touch down, it has led to two quite productive days which I suppose is a bonus. But more importantly I think I now understand the new seating arrangement fully. Now part of it I may be wrong on, but part of it I am 100% certain of. I have moved office 3 times now as part of a number of reshuffles, each time my new seat reflects a common trait but on this most recent move I could not see it until today (Wednesday).
When moved first time I was placed in the furthest corner from the door in the smallest and least visited of the offices we occupied at teh time. The official reason was that I was deemed not to need help. However conveniently there was an old, and large, printer between me and the door almost totally blocking me from sight of anyone who walked in. When I was temporarily moved to another office following the recent redundancies I was placed on my own, seemingly out of the main “group” – this time I was told it was due to a lack of desks [which in fairness was probably true], but again I was out the way. With the consolidation of offices and staff in this most recent move I expected to be in the furthest corner again, but I was put right by the door which seemed odd. I also did not understand why I was placed facing the woman I was. Now I understand.
As you walk in it is very easy to walk past me. You turn a sharp 90 degrees as you come in the outer door and into the inner one and if you do it in a sweeping motion or have you back facing outward towards the outer door (which you often do naturally due to the direction the doors open), you can miss me totally. Now the person I sit in front of works part time, 9:30am to 2-3pm and only does 4 days a week. So I spend about 1/3 of each day and the whole of Friday with no one in front of me or who I can talk to if I wish. The other people in “my” part of the office are on a bank of 4 desks and can all talk easily to each other but are far enough away to be separate from me. Thus I am isolated from everyone else. Finally my position means that the only time you really “see” me is when you walk out and frankly at that point who really cares, if you notice me, you often will not be paying attention.
Friday came and whilst isolated today I did not feel too bad, mainly because I had a massive credit hire headache to deal with which took about 2 1/2 hours to do (most take 30-45 mins max). I won’t bore you with the details but this and a couple of other bits kept me very busy today which is good. A meeting that was supposed to happen yesterday did not which is something I expected to happen. The person who I was supposed to have it with did apologise today and said she had been too busy this week [which in fairness is probably correct] and due to her being on leave most of next week it will likely not happen for a couple of weeks now. We shall see on that, I still have my doubts as I consider this part of my isolation – but at the same time I like to try and keep open minded about things.
This week saw my second attempt at wearing a cardigan at work, and it was much better. I felt a lot more comfortable wearing it as I think I was in a better frame set and mind as well as perhaps wearing tops that work with it better than last time. The only potential issue I saw was that with my breast enhancers in place under my bra, the cardigan hung off them in a much more obvious way. This perhaps should be expected as anything which causes a bulge or other lump/bump to appear on your body is going to stand out unless you wear very loose fitting items. That said, it did not feel overly unnatural, but is something which needs consideration and thought in the future.
The red/coral bra worked well under my red chiffon blouse and was only just visible under it but not to a degree that I felt uncomfortable. However, due to wearing a very light chiffon blouse on Tuesday no bra could be worn on the second day of the cardigan to try test how things looked further. The blouse in question shows a vest/t-shirt if worn underneath it very clearly so a bra on it’s own is a definite no go at this point in time.
Wednesday I had to take the bra I was wearing off by mid morning as I had failed to notice it was not adjusted right on the straps. I was not really able to spend 5-10 mins playing and adjusting in the toilet at work, better to take it off quick and adjust it next time I go to wear it.
My new jumper/tops are lovely. I wore one with my satin blouse on Wednesday and think it looked amazing. These should be great for both casual and smart dress and I am hoping will open a few new options up for me. Wish I could afford another pack in a different sent of colours to give me even more options! Sadly I cannot at the moment so never mind…
This week I have noticed that my dress sense has been much stronger female than balanced for some reason. Obviously there was a concious choice with me wanting to wear some of my new clothes but even wearing a little lip gloss this week has been something new and adds femininity to my face. My daughter today said I looked like a girl which made me remove the lip gloss almost instantly and made me question my clothes (but it was too late to change them at this point as we had to leave to school and work). Not sure how best to play this one and if there is a trend starting or just me experimenting. I will need to watch and see….